Saturday 30 July 2011

Today and from now on

i have a plan, i will get my car, and join the gym, try my hardest at work, and eat healthier.
My life will be happier, if i change my ways.
1. get a car.
2. join the gym.
3. be an amazing hair dresser.

Friday 29 July 2011

I must laugh

Or else ill die, i need to laugh. I need to start going out more, I just need to. I need to get a car so i can leave when i want. I need to go on a roadtrip. I must go soon, I'll book a holiday, how about feb 8th? or maybe earlier, needs to be warm, ill go up north. and camp. i must. i must leave!

Shocked out of my mind



Never thought this would happen again, i seen you standing there... I was amazed, it was like i had been waiting for that moment to kiss you just one last time. We stood there together for a moment, then it happened, right in front of my girl, we fell back into the past and brushed each others lips, i felt like we never parted, we went back to yours and stayed in your bed, you told me my eyes were still beautiful, in the morning you still called me baby and hun even though we were sober. And we showered together, i got picked up... then everything went normal again, we are nothing, we never were. Our whole relationship was fake, including our emotions. Like you said you don't care about alot anymore. Well neither do i, i thought i loved you, fuck it. I don't even care. Bye bye sorrow and hello happiness. 

Wednesday 13 July 2011

and i wish

if the truth is your a liar, going out of my head now.

I hope i see you this time, i use to avoid you with every bus, every pavement and every shopping mall. Now i want to see you, and i want to look in your eyes with disgust. You are disgusting. I won't even touch you, but the look in my eyes will shock you, because you have no idea how much i regret you. I regret you.